Im back crying sliently here...

hAIx im bAck...i gUEss no ONe wiLl ever kNow im bLoGGing again...gUEss i CAn Really speak out...how i ReALly Feel About What hAs HAppEn to Mie...

guess i will feel better ...saying out...

hIAx i bRoke up WIth mY dEAr lIAox...haiz..."ALL I CAN SAY IS ITS MY FOUL MOUTH>...i KNOW I SAID THINGS TAT CAN HURT YOU VERY BADLY"

Things LIke "Dun make your problem my problem" "sCoLD You?! WAste My BReath!"

hAIx Sorry..tats mY weakness...cox im a very jealous person le...

4months has pass...no 6months Has pass every Since i ask yOU to Be mOi dEAr...Althought tHe time is short...BUt...im Sure i did try My VEry BEst to mAke you happy...

Why Im AlWays Quarreling With yOU? hMmm...

1) im jealous VERY!
2) disappionted
3) scared to lost you

1>>>haiz bad things started when vincent came in...he like my dear...and Sent HEr to Sch ect...BUt the thing is tat My DEAR GOt STEAd She NVEr tELL him!! and let him "Woo" her...haix SAD!!!

plus many things i ask she say no but actually yess...i must ask more then 5X times UNtil She VEry DU LAN WITH ME...then she tell...

BlOg...WHAT EVER I SAID IS JUST ONE SIDE STORY...i just saying how i feel...im not saying im Right,.... if im wrong i beg you to tell me "if you could"

iTs lIKe many MNAy times...Example "dEAR today Vincent got sent yoU to school? " no"...but some one saw it...

In the end she say " WHY YOU DUN BELIVE YOUR STEAD?! and go listen to others?"

its like...whos fault? izzit my fault to wrongy accux mY dEAr? pls tell me...

And tat GoEs on and On...tAts make Me think she is untruth when i ask her...

BUt AS a WoMen...she is afraid tat once i know...i will be sad...DEAr...I WoulD RAther KNow THEn LEttIng yOU HIDe FRom me...haix iTs tOo lAte to Say thIS but...TAts How i FeEl...

I lOVe my dEAr ALot...jUSt Why MAybe She Find me IrrItatIng TEllIng HEr in FULL DETAILS on what has hAppen to me tODay...Erm TAts abit Girlish...girls do tat no guys...gUEss im one of those special GUy...with some Female Char

i Was Dame PiSs Off...lIAox thinKing she is aways telling untrue things to me...

BUt I lOVe HEr LOTs...tats why...i stayed on..." if you love a person you will accept his/er weakness and try to change him or her for the BETTER"...

i ask HEr "DEAr...can yOu CHange..." "yEss" hIAx...But Time again and again...same thing happen...

and she said WHY YOU DUN TRUST YOUR STEAD?

goD...or someone SOMEBODY....i nEed An Ans...tell me...what can i do...at tat time...whats the right thing to do...

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Im Afraid to lOSe yOU...who knows If you Every DAy tAlk to Him you wun LIke him?....Or make him like you even more?....Its not I Dun GIVE you FreeDOm...i Will AnyHOw tiNk AfTEr so MAny things HAppen its like a CHAIN EFFECT
"If you dun like tat person dun give him hope" <----for this...im i right to say this?...tats what im ALWAYS telling myself...i nver give hope to person whom i dun like...

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Then Alvin came in...haix this is Worst....she got stead le...and guys ask her for number she give le...and every day talk to him athough SHE KNOW THE GUY LIKE HER....

She Din tOLd me about him...until I FOUND OUt MYSElf...

gOD pls help...tHEn AgAin...WHAt CAN i Do? izzit my fualt if im angry? and qurrel...hAIx

tHis tHingz make mE And HEr QuRRel even mORe...

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im a bastard...Every Work mY dEAr CAme All THE Way from Woodlands to ORchard just to Fetch me...then i qurrel With HEr...haix...GUEss tHis time im really in the wrong...

But Seriiuosly dAEr...tHAnks...its really sweet and i APPreciate it Alot...really...haha would i lie to myslef here? NO ones KNow IM BLOgging AgAin...im SAying Every tHing OUt to You "blog" cox your the only tHing...in the world who i can speak freely...

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i rmb tElling her..."dAEr If i Worrk it will mAke oUr relatiOnship sour..." tats very true...cox we are used to having each other always by each other's side...

Last day of work 9 march 2006...mY DEAr say she wanna Rest...she's tired"...haix...i Was lIke CryINg While working...i Dun CAre IF ppl Are lOokin At me!....i ALways told myself..EDWIN! YOUR STRONG! ......no matter how HUrt the pain is...i have to bEAr With it....sorry...i cant...tEars..jUst DrOp...i Tried to Contact HEr BUt Ending Up MAking her mORe "restless"...in the end...she broke up with me...11 03 06...i will nver 4got this day...and 02 11 06...

dEAr i LOve You lOts...THis is THe 1st time im MAking MIStake(s) ...Wy cant You gIve me a CHAnce>? you said "Its like tat one larx, once you lose something...Then u will treasure it" ...partly correct....4 me...LASt time i Was lIke tat..BUT IVE CHANGE....JUst every since We are TOGETHER I REALLY TREASURE YOU LOTz...im think all ways to make Us a Married couples...cox i jst wan to setter down with you...even my mum said tat to me " IF you think she's the one for you...reg at ROM 1st..." haha together with my aunTIez!! ROM!!...buT..i Din Went...COx Seeing CoupLez mARried While im Alone...MAkez me even SAdder...

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i Rmb tElling yOu " i've not played euff...bUt...i have really tot of it b4...you are the one...and i wan to be your lao gong...But im sure each of us have mistakes...And im HOping to correct this...and make our relationship lASt 4ever...But it tOo lAte...GUess i Not a Good at tAlking OR handerling with My PRoblems...ending up like tat...

dEAr...im Really sorry to HUrt you...all i can say is "I LUV YOU"....

DUMB/STUPIT, EDWIN

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ABOUT ME

[E] dwin

Your greatest need is to talk. If your date is not a good listener, you have trouble relating. A person must be intellectually stimulating or you are not interested sexually. You need a friend for a lover and a companion You hate disharmony and disruption, but you do enjoy a good argument once in a while-it seems to stir things up. You flirt a lot, for the challenge is more important. But once you give your heart away, you are uncompromisingly loyal. You will fall asleep with a good book. sometimes, in fact, you prefer a good book to a lover)

Turn ons

Scorpio`s are full of passion and zest for life. They have tremendous drive that can involve you too. Tune in to their wavelength and you can enjoy the harmony and music in life with them. Scorpio`s are loyal and never forget a ki nd deed done by you. If you want to enjoy life with your Scorpio lover share their passion and intensity and you will be fascinated by how beautiful life can be with them.

Turn offs

Scorpio`s are very passionate and intense but they are also fiercely possessive and would like to possess your mind, body and soul. Do not let seeds of jealousy grow in them because then you may have to suffer agonies of jealousy and discontentment in life. Scorpio`s have explosive tempers be careful how you handle them. They never let anyone know what is going on in their mind till they strike and you may be caught unawares. Do not flirt around in the presence of your Scorpio lover.